A lot of things. Remembering how hard I worked before. Not wanting to give in, like when I was alive. The fact that trying to give up didn't work. But mostly? No matter what I did before, that's all I'm remembered for. The girl thousands of people saw die, who almost killed the idol industry, whose shadow stands over everyone who's just trying to make people smile. I don't want that to be all I ever was.
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